This is Olivia and Elijah. I get to babysit them every friday. I get to wake them up, make dinner for them, buckle them into their car seats and sing with them as we drive to church. And I love it. I love it so much that right now it is the highlight of my week. Getting to rock Eli to sleep, or hear Olivia (she is two) repeat Jon 3:16 to me are some of the most precious moments of my week. I'm going to sound so pathetic saying this and I NEVER thought I would, but I've recently discovered that more than being a Doctor, working with Project Rescue, doing MercyShips, helping Women and Children, owning a house where people can come stay whenever they need, and figuring out how to get clean water for the world...I want my own family! I want to be a mum and get to have lots of my own kids. Eeek, I hope I don't sound super pathetic - I've met other women my age who don't want anything else for their life and just hide in being a soccer mom and I think to myself,'Man I am so glad I have passions, dreams, aspirations and courage to make them happen!" but in a way I understand their desire. Its this crazy feeling getting to speak truth and love into two little lives. I I'm quickly falling in love with it! certainly drive a lot more carefully when they are sitting in my back seat!
...Please don't judge me! :)
2 comments:
hi amy Sarah here.... yes elective c setcion due to vey complicated delivery with Madeline so yay no contractions this time... although the contractions were nothing compared with the delivery...give me contractions any day!
Dont underestimate your wanting to be a mummy or downgrade it, its beautiful Amy, you'll be a B U T Full mumma! :) And your not waiting around sitting in a corner waiting for it to happen, your still living life, so thats aweeesome. Yay for kids huh. :)
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